Its been awhile since Ive done this. I used to write in a note book to nobody. That is why this is called my Dear Nobody Letters. This isnt what was in the notebook, I threw away that notebook and now I wish I hadnt. Just like I wish I hadnt stopped writing in it. But I dont expect anyone to read this, this is just me wantin to write(or type) somethin down. They say that is what Blogs are for, but I dont know. I'll tell you this right now my typing isnt perfect and my sentences are probably not "grammatically" correct, but I dont care.

 I am not the skinniest of girls, hell Im not even skinny and Ill never be Hollywood Skinny. My ideal size is a 12 or 14. But I dont see my self as fat and ugly. I am fat but not ugly so I dont have Self-Image issues. My problem is I know Im Beautiful when I want to be, Im just not Sexy and that is what People want these days. They dont want beautiful they want sexy. And no matter what I do I just dont feel Sexy. Its hard to try to attract guys ( and women have to do all the work these days) when you dont feel sexy. And there is a difference I have a friend (and I am not namin names) that other people have told me is not very pretty( I think she is but I judge inside/out) but she gets hit on all the time because she is a very sexy person. Whenever I try and look hott I get told that I am very beautiful(usually by women or old guys) but no guys around my age hit on me. Most of em pretty much ignore me. So I am used to doin alot of stuff myself, which dont get me wrong, I believe women should be able to hold their own, but I also believe Guys should help because their suppose to be men. And yes I do believe their is a difference between Men and Guys and I havent met any Men, I know alot of Guys, and do not like the other type of  male(?) if that is what you wanna call it. I dont believe Guys or Men would ever get their nails done professionally. I barely get mine done professionally.